Help

by Summer Jaynes

I feel like screaming, I feel like dreaming
I can't feel at all
I'm numb, tired of the pain, tired of the hate,
tired of life.

Why can't I sleep, dream, escape this life?
When did the hate start in my life?
Why am I smiling and laughing one week
Now I feel like I'm dead inside...I'm sad, mad,
but at who and why?
Maybe myself, maybe him, maybe everyone.
No one loves me, no one cares.
Why? Am I not likeable, loveable?

I want to cry but no tears come out
When will I stop feeling like this?
What am I feeling?
Mad, sad, angry, depressed, hatred, my insides are
screaming...Help me...Someone love me....

Everyone says, "Things will be better"
But when? All my life I heard this saying
All my life I have felt this screaming inside
Things seem to get worser in my life
nothing gets better.

People say "Things happen for a reason."
What reason?
Why the black eyes, dead babies, lies,
broken promises?

When will I stop hurting, someone tell me.